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Being Weak is not a…Weakness?

This has definitely been a long tiring month for me, full of ups and downs.  I was hoping to sleep late this morning and catch up from many restless nights, but my mind is still in overdrive processing everything in my near future.  Take speaking at two camps in three weeks and place the most stressful week in the history of Awestruck right in the middle of them, and you have the perfect recipe for a fatigue sandwich.  I am worn out mentally, physically and even spiritually.  Let me be clear on this, I am NOT throwing myself a little pity party.  (like I did when I broke my toe)  I am actually encouraged about my condition this morning.  I am more fully understanding what Paul was saying in these verses about how God works in our life.  I am comprehending that when I am at the place of being totally incapable and useless, God is at His best.  When I get to the place of ignorance is when I have no other options than to fully depend on God’s wisdom.  When I cannot physically take one more step is when I am moving in God’s direction because He is guiding me!  For when I am weak, then He is strong.  I have this incredible promise from God, “My gracious favor is all you need.  My power is works best in your weakness.”  God make me weak and more dependent!

The Hardest Part….

is getting to know yourself and making yourself vulnerable in front of a room of “acquaintances”.  People who don’t seem to have any weaknesses?  It is not easy to admit that I am not “perfect”.  Deep down I know that they don’t expect perfection, but I still hold strong reservations about filleting my innermost doubts to the room.  The fact: It is a necessity to become more aware of who I truly am.  Only as I grow in my awareness of who I am and who I am not will I further myself as a man.  As I grow in my understanding of my strengths and weakness then I can be a better husband, father, friend, mentor and Pastor.  As I sat in that room of Pastors today, I realized that we might have the hardest time admitting our downfalls in life.  Our churches look to us for guidance and leadership.  In the midst of that we forget that the most precious gift we can give them is Honesty.  I must be honest about my struggles and failures.  After all, I am merely a wretch saved by God’s grace.  I am as undeserving as anyone else, but He called me to Pastor a church.  It is in my weakness that He is made strong.  It is in my honesty that the people God has called me to lead will understand that grace and forgiveness are real.  

This is what I have taken away from my first day of Gallup Certification for Strengths Coaching.  The odd thing is that we never discussed any of this!  It was an internal struggle all day long as we worked through each exercise.  The more we talked about helping others through their strengths, the more I thought of my own struggles.  I cannot wait to see what God has in store for tomorrow!